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God has a plan [30 Apr 2009|07:04pm] I was recently in a situation where things did not turn out as expected. At first, to be honest, I was completely and utterly bewildered. I really could not wrap my mind around what had happened. I could not understand how things could turn out this way. "Seriously?! What are you THINKING?!" But as I had time to process it a small, subtle voice whispered to me "God has a plan." [Side tangent]Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not ENTIRELY convinced that the way the situation turned out is how God wanted it. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but there are just too many people involved. Still I'm not going to put God in a box.[/tangent] God can and will work through this situation. Some really good things are going to come out of this and I believe with all my heart that, if I let him, God will do miraculous things through this. So, now is the time to turn my attention to God. Now is the time to seek his will in this situation and remain sensitive to his talking. Now is the time to find out what God wants to do through me and others and do my absolute best to make that happen. I know that if I can do that, and if all of us can do that, then we will ultimately be successful. All for the glory of God. post comment

Time to blog...again... [13 Apr 2009|04:55pm] A friends recent blogging revival has inspired me to start blogging again...we'll see how long it lasts this time. I didn't go home for Easter because we only had Friday and Monday off and it seemed too complicated to try to figure out how to get home for four days. So, I went home with Sila(Lisa) instead. It was a lot of fun! Her family is super sweet and made me feel right at home. They do a lot together. They eat lunch and dinner together, they go for walks together, they play games together, they watch movies together, etc. Every day I was there we did something where we got to spend time with each other. It was so much fun! I got to talk to and bond with Sila a lot. It was fun to have a sister for the weekend. It was interesting, too, to see how they functioned. Everybody's family is so different and it was cool to be a part of something so entirely different from my own life. I really enjoyed my time with them. I have been thinking and praying a lot about my future life, especially my future husband. I am realizing more and more everyday just how special and intimate I want our relationship to be. Sure, there isn't anybody now, but I have faith that God will put us together in his perfect timing. In the mean time, I've been learning what personality traits I want him to have and developing those traits in myself. We had a chapel speaker two weeks ago who talked about this. He said that the first traits we should look for in a partner are the fruits of the spirit, so that is what I am starting with. I have a list in the back of my quiet time journal that I refer to and have made a commitment to work on one every day. When the time comes, I want to be the best girlfriend, fiance, and wife that I can and in order to do that  I need to start working on myself now. More to come later (maybe). Right now, it's dinner time! ^_^ post comment

About Me [15 Jan 2009|11:24pm] (In no semblance of order what-so-ever) Things I like: -Flowers (especially red roses) -Brown, Red, Purple (any combination of those three), grey and white -Animals (especially dogs) -Close friends -Performing arts -Abstract art -Abstract ideas -Reading -Knitting -Drawing -Music -Soundtracks -Deep Conversations -Watching Movies -Roommate bonding time -College -Crazy conductors -People who love music -Hawaii -Europe (especially Italy and Russia) -Traveling -Playing Cards -Rain -Jesus -Simeon -The Bible (James, Revelation, Jonah, 1 Thessalonians, 1&2 Corinthians) Things I do not like: -More than two inches of snow -Ice -Driving by myself -Being by myself -Being in crowds -Limits on creative expression -Abortion -Divorce -Petty fighting -Drama -Sudoku puzzles -Sauerkraut -Asparagus -Dry skin -The Devil -Swearing post comment

[12 Jan 2009|09:04am] So coming back to school has been pretty crazy. I'm here without my car because it has been acting up and I can't afford to have it fixed right now. I'm okay with that, though. I don't go places too often and usually when I do it's with someone else who usually has a car. I just don't know about that car anymore... My Mom and Grandma drove me back to school. They stayed in my apartment from Friday until Sunday. It was weird. I love them both to death but they just don't belong in my college world. I also had to take the futon mattress and sleep in the study room. Mom was sleepign in my bed and I couldn't sleep with her sleep machine running. Grandma was in the living room on the couch (her choice) and she snores...loudly. I am very grateful to them for driving me back but it was nice to sleep in my own bed last night.  I finalized registration this morning. This is the quickest I have ever done that. It's nice to not have to worry about it. I just have to worry about paying off the student loan after I graduate. >_< My roommates are coming today! I'm so excited to see them! I've missed them terribly! I feel like my life is not complete without them. It'll be nice to have them here. I have to meet with the guy in charge of the theatre department to get everything situated for BWS set stuff. I guess in the past the people in charge of the set haven't really done a good job of taking care of things/cleaning things because this guy is very hesitant to let us use anything and keeps telling me that things haven't been good in years past and we need to do a better job this year. I don't think it will be a problem this year as we have a very good council.  Hopefully in the future we can mend that relationship. Orch. clinic is going well. We've had so much rehearsal. Only five or so more hours (of rehearsal) to go before our concert. I have mixed emotions about it being over. On one hand it is extremely tiring both physically and mentally, but on the other hand it is a ton of fun. Oh well.  post comment

R.I.P. [09 Jan 2009|05:07pm] Molly Mary May Sterns 5/1/95-1/7/09 She was an awesome cat. I'm going to miss her like crazy.   1 comment|post comment

Fan-girl syndrome [08 Dec 2008|12:34pm] I hate it when I like something and then it becomes popular and too many people become obsessed with it for really dumb, shallow reasons. It's like I'm not allowed to like it anymore because you must be one of "them" if you like it. I like Twilight. The writing style may not be the best but I absolutely LOVE the supporting characters (specifically Alice and Jasper) but now that it has become this Edward love fest, I get criticized for liking it. Then they had to go and make a ridiculously over-dramatic movie about it and actually put a face with the character. So now there are even MORE fan girls. Curse you, fan girls! Curse you and your obsessions! Makes it impossible for any of us with more sense than "I like Twilight because Edward is hott!" to actually enjoy something. [/rant] post comment

To the whole two people who EVER read this anymore... [27 Nov 2008|08:51pm] I had an epiphany of sorts a while back. I'm interested in other opinions. Why should we, Christians, impose our rules and beliefs on non-Christians? A) Non-Christians don't buy into that so why should they be expected to abide by them? B) It's no way to "win people over" so to speak. Imposing beliefs does more harm than good. C) It's not our job to judge them anyways. I haven't looked into this in the Bible as much as I should. I will do that in comming days. I'm curious as to others opinions. :) Funny, it seems as though going to a very conservative Christian college has turned me into more of a liberal Christian...hmm... 2 comments|post comment

[13 Mar 2008|03:05pm] [ mood | cheerful ] It is absolutely B-E-A-UTIFUL outside! 61 degrees! I wanna go play but there is no one around to play with. :( I got some good practice time in today. Got a lot of stuff accomplished that I didn't think I would. I'm starting to feel confident in my piece for the Dale Clevenger master class already which is a good sign and I actually feel prepared for my lesson tomorrow. w00t! Also, Harmony got canceled so I get an extra hour to sleep! Yay! Also, my room is clean! Also, I'M COMING HOME TOMORROW! YAY! I miss my peoples! I'm in a pretty good mood right now. ^_^ 1 comment|post comment

Just an update ^_^ [26 Feb 2008|04:09pm] [ mood | calm ] Things are going well. Yesterday was glorious! Ther was nothing really that special about it, I just felt really good about it. Yeah, it was uber busy but it was good. Prayer warriors was interesting (in a good way) because they were still practicing for Party with Jesus so we had to shout the entire time. It was fun, though. Party with Jesus was really cool, too. It snowed a lot during party with Jesus! After PWJ was over the campus was GORGEOUS! I love it when all the trees are covered with snow. They look so pretty! The best part was that it wasn't really that cold so I could stand outside and look at everything! I loved it! Now that they've plowed everything it isn't so pretty. : / Who needs to drive, anyways? Seriously! :P I feel like I've been rather productive the past couple of days. I'm all caught up on my homework. Now I just need to study for my test on Thursday in Christian Scriptures and start my Diverse Lit. paper for ed. 150. I plan on spending the evening in the Library so hopefully I can put a decent sized dent in that stuff. Tuesday nights are good nights to get things done. Yeah...that's all. -R post comment

5:30 AM fire alarm [18 Feb 2008|10:04am] [ mood | content ] Well this morning started out rather interesting...As you can probably tell by the title of this entry, the fire alarm went off at 5:30 this morning. It is quite interesting to see the different levels of consciousness expressed in the faces of all the girls. We had the girls who found a spot to sit (we all congregated in Nesbitt lobby...it was stinky) and fell asleep on each other, the girls with the blank stare, the girls who were perturbed and complained about wanting to go back to bed, and then the loopy ones. I definitely fell under the loopy category. (This is all useless information that you don't care about, I'm sure) Well after that I had a hard time going back to sleep (we didn't get back in until 10 after 6). It usually takes me around an hour to fall asleep anyways. I think I may have gotten 20 minutes of sleep before my alarm went off this morning. @_@ Now I am completely and utterly exhausted with a looooooooooooong day ahead of me. I do get to sleep in tomorrow morning so that is a plus. I got my hair cut. It's really short in the back (Kati Cawood short) with stacked layers and it angles forward to the front (a little longer than chin length). If I part it off to the side and give it some volume it looks really cute. I'd show you but I don't have a working camera. You'll just have to imagine it yourself. I'm thinking about doing some post-grad work in music therapy. I spent a couple of days working with the Music Therapist at the Ed. Center at the ISD. I had an absolute blast! I LOVED working with the students there and I was really comfortable around them, too. (The students there are severely cognitively impaired)  I think that it would be a fun environment to work in eventually. I'd definitely want to work in a special education school. Well that is all I have for today. Hope you all are havign a wonderful day! -R 1 comment|post comment

I'm having a good day! [11 Feb 2008|09:25am] [ mood | chipper ] I slept really well last night. This rarely happens on Sunday night. I slept all the way through the night (this is extremely rare) and when my alarm went off at 8 this morning I had no trouble getting up. I went about my usual morning business and when I got to the part where I check my e-mail I found out that my 8:30 class was canceled. This was nice because I had some extra time to get everything together, less stuff to wrangle, and I could go to breakfast. As I was eating, Wes joined me. I don't know Wes real well so it was kind of nice to have a good conversation with him. After breakfast I went over to Larsen to prep myself for the playing test I had at 9:30. When I got there I found out that that class was also canceled (I have this class twice on Mondays so this cuts down my load a TON). So now I am just chillin' in my room. After I'm done with this I'm going to clean (a much overdue task) and just chill until my 11 o'clock class. I only have 3 classes today! Wee! I know this is a little bit out of order but it's my journal so deal with it. Yesterday was pretty awesome as well. I went and got my Mom, Aunt, and Grandma from the hotel they were staying at and we went to the 10 o'clock service at Manteno. It just so happened that we sat behind one of the professors here (Prof. Wine) who also happens to be the brother of the pastor at Williams lake, a church in the Eastern Mich. District, AND Josh Allen, a long time friend of the family and who's roots are in Bedford Church of the Nazarene, is the youth pastor at that church. It's one of those crazy Nazarene connections. I talked to Prof. Wine and his wife for a bit during the "greet one another" time. After the service Donna, his wife, invited me to go to their home group Bible study. I went and it was awesome. Their home was very warm and cozy and the atmosphere the entire time was very welcoming. It was quite enjoyable. I shall be returning in future weeks. ^_^ Well that is all I have for now. I hope you all are having a wonderful day as well and if not, just remember that bad days don't last forever. (Sorry, that was entirely too optimistic and cheesy. :P ) post comment

Well then... [27 Jan 2008|02:02pm] Yesterday was quite interesting. Then again, aren't all 12 hour band rehearsals? It turned out to be quite amusing. We did get a lot of work done. We learned the drill and added the music to the two full band acts. It was quite exhausting work, though. My section bonded a lot yesterday. I think we bonded more in those twelve hours than we did in the entire two weeks of band camp. It was good times. Today is Sunday. I absolutely LOVE Sunday. We went to Manteno for church again. I think I may start going there regularly. I quite enjoy it. Now I am relaxing. It's wonderful. I never appreciated Sundays to the extent I do now until I got to college. They are amazing. Well...I guess that is it...I thought I had more to say and then...I didn't...*shrug* -R P.S. It's Mozart's Birthday! Celebrate  it! Cherish it! Hug a music nerd! :P post comment

[18 Jan 2008|10:21am] Well, it has been a crazy week. Feelings of stress, joy, peace, anxiousness, frustration, fear, and joy have all intertwined themselves through out it. Mostly with playing zee horn. Funny, it seems that how my practicing is going determines my mood and emotions. You know you're a music major when... So I remembered last night around 1:30 that on top of two tests, I also had to play in studio. Fortunately I was able to come up with something and it went okay. My theory test went okay too. Fine arts should be a breeze and then I only have Hist./Phil of Ed. which is generally low caliber. THEN then then then then I get to go back to my room and TAKE A NAP!!!! I'm so excited about this. Sleep is glorious! And it's almost the weekend. And I don't have to get up early tomorrow. I've been getting very distracted lately. If I'm having a conversation with you and I stop mid thought and don't continue just prod me or something. It's happened a few times this week. I've just got so many thoughts swimming around in my head that I can't spit anything out before it is gone and a new thought is there. So I was thinking yesterday and this concept came to mind: As Christians we obviously need to be above the things of the world but if we're too far above it we can't relate well enough to effectively reach out. Anybody have any thoughts on this? 5 comments|post comment

New Yahoo ID. Read it. kthxbye. [16 Jan 2008|07:08pm] So my yahoo id isn't working anymore. (It may have gotten hacked. In that case I'm sorry if the hacker has been bugging any of you) Now, it's be much easier for you all to add me instead of me trying to add all of you. (And frankly, I don't have the time either. :P ) My new Screen Name is ReeBekkAhh Please add me. *puppy eyes* Even if you didn't have me before, go ahead and add me now. ^_^ Also, I have aim again so if you would like to add me on Aim you can do that as well. My aim is love my jesus 89 post comment

Bad practice days suck... [15 Jan 2008|09:59pm] [ mood | grumpy ] I'm starting to feel a little burnt out with playing my horn and that scares me... I'm sure it's just because I haven't really had a good week practice wise and I just feel really behind where I am supposed to be. Being the only freshman music major with applied horn doesn't help much, either. I feel like I really suck in comparison to everyone else. I know it shouldn't matter how good I am in comparison to them but when they talk about lessons and the music they're playing I always feel like they are way out of my league. *sigh* I'll probably be over all of this tomorrow. I have a lesson and lessons make me stressed/grumpy. I'm sure I'll be fine when it is over. Classes have been fun. I have a crap ton of them but I am enjoying all of them so it isn't too bad. Just lots and lots of classes. (I have six in a row on Mondays. >_<) I got wednesday/thursday chapel. (For those of you who don't know and actually care, we have gone to a rotationg chapel schedule. They have chapel tues.-thurs. and you are assigned to two of the three days. This way everyone fits in Chalfant.) I'm excited about this because I get to sleep in on tuesday and recover a little longer from the chaos of Monday. My new roommate is working out very well. I love her lots! We are having fun. We switched the room aroudn again so it is more conducive to late night conversations. :P (Bunk beds don't work too well for that.) Well, I have a bit of homework to do and then I should probably entertain the idea of going to bed. I have an 8:30 tomorrow. Yippe Skippy! -R 2 comments|post comment

Back at School! Woo! [08 Jan 2008|08:18pm] [ mood | complacent ] Being back at school has been nice. Sunday was a little bit weird because almost no one was here. Angela was, though, so I was glad for that. I also got to meet my new roommate. At the last minute they decided to switch the roommate I was supposed to have to a different room and the roommate I currently have to my room. I was a little confused but I must say that I can’t complain. Sarah is really cool and I’ve really enjoyed having her around. We have A LOT in common. It’s a lot of fun.                 Yesterday was pretty cool. Once I got all of my financial stuff figured out (which I did, Thank you Lord) it was smooth sailing. Angela, Angela’s friend (and my new friend) Janielle, and I went out to Perry farms and walked around a bit. We went back to the caves and they were absolutely gorgeous. We couldn’t go down and walk along the bottom because the water was too high but I think that just made them that much more spectacular. I realized something while I was down there. We (the three of us) were talking about how no matter how hard you try you can never convey the feeling you have in the moment when you are standing there beholding this beautiful creation. It just transcends words and expression.  This is totally a glimpse into God. A re-occurring theme as of lately has been how God reveals himself and I don’t think I ever REALLY grasped hold of it until that one moment when I was standing on the bridge beholding the beauty of the start of the caves.   Feel free to stop reading here as the other stuff I have to say is pretty boring and just “I did this and that” type stuff. ^_^   This morning I went and bought all of my books ($478 >_< ). I’m glad to have them though. They’re all so pretty. I have two hardcovers this semester! I’m excited about this! (I know I’m a dork. Shut it! :P ) It was nice to have all morning to prepare myself for the day. It was a good day. My first class was BLIT 202 (Christian Scriptures I ). It is a class about the main events of the Old Testament. It was actually quite enjoyable. All we talked about today (after all the intro to the course stuff) was the geography of the main land. I never realized how small it is! I know that I will be learning quite a bit in this class. I’m really looking forward to it! After that I had Musicianship I. It was pretty cool. I really like a lot of the people who are in the class. It is going to be quite fun. Dr. Ball teaches it and so far she is my favorite music prof. so I really think I’ll enjoy it. Concert band was nothing special. Pretty much the same except a lot smaller with a few new people. It was just kind of blah… Now I’m sitting here (well typing this now) doing homework and such. I’ve got to read for Christian Scriptures. Hopefully then I can unwind a bit and maybe go to bed a little earlier! Yay for sleep! Well I love you all! If you read this far then I applaud your attention span. :P post comment

Monday Finals @_@ [17 Dec 2007|02:17pm] [ mood | drained ] Music Juries = stress....to the billionth power...times 5. Brain = Mush... Piano exam = not my best because of mushy brain Blah... post comment

To Alma Mater Olivet (Semester Re-cap) [16 Dec 2007|11:57am] Classes (This is why we came to college. Isn't it?)- My classes have been pretty amazing. It is really cool to have professors who actually care about you and are concerned with helping you reach the highest level you can. Of course I had my favorites but even the class I disliked the most I'm going to miss. They were all really great. I'm looking forward to diving into what next semester has to offer me. Relationships (We're talking friends here)- My friends here are amazing, especially Amy, Angela, and Lisa. We have quickly formed very good friendships and I love these girls to death. They are so encouraging that it is absolutely impossible to stay down for any length of time at all. They are really helpful and a whole lot of fun. All my other friends have been pretty awesome too. I loooooove the horn section in band. We are the best and we know how to get it done. Kendra is an amazing section leader. I love being in her section. Holly is someone I look up to. She gives me advice on how to deal with the stresses of being a music major (she knows better than all of us, I'm sure). The entire band has been a blast in general. All the other people I have met are great as well. I love them all! Spiritual (God is amazing, Amen?)- I love the spiritual atmosphere here. It is very conducive to growing. I was talking to Angela and a couple of other people the other day about how Olivet is a great place to be ministered to yet is also a great place to minister to people. Lately I've been learning about how the body of Christ functions and my specific functions within the body. It's pretty neat stuff. Health- I must say that I've actually been pretty healthy here. I haven't really gotten sick for an extended period of time. I did get one 24 hour bug but that is pretty much it. Oh, can't forget about the Sodexho-s. Those get everybody, though. :P post comment

Home... [23 Nov 2007|02:25am] [ mood | contemplative ] Home is such an interesting place now. It is a place where I am always welcome but don't quite belong. I don't live here anymore... My bedroom does not feel like mine anymore. My bed is not the bed I sleep best in. My cats treat me like a very familiar visitor. My mom is more like my friend and less like my guardian. (This is actually a good thing.) Will it ever feel like home again? I was excited to come home but now I'm kind of excited to go back to school. I guess it may just be because I am used to living at school and not so much here in Dundee anymore. When I got here my mom caught me up on the latest drama and I remembered why I was so anxious to leave. The question is, when I come back for the summer will the feeling that I don't quite belong fade or will it not? Should I even come home? Is it regressive to come back home for that long? I miss the people here (Church family, family, and friends) a lot but I do not seem to fit in this place. And there you have it. A taste of my late night thoughts/ramblings...*shrug* post comment

Recap of the last...well...whatever... [15 Nov 2007|01:39am] [ mood | chipper ] In bullet form! Yay for bullets! YAY FOR GOD! God is amazing! I am a beloved child of God. THAT is amazing. If God had a myspace and/or a facebook everybody would be number one. The Great Divorce is a really good book. C.S. Lewis is an amazing writer. My favorite prof. teaches the class I am having the most trouble with. I am pre-registered for next semester! Yay! I have eleven classes and 18 credit hours next semester! Lord give me strength! I will be taking a few classes at MCCC over the summer...probably every summer so I can get out of here in four years. Don't get me wrong, I love it, but I can't afford more than four years. Bassoons are funny instruments and are quite entertaining after a flute choir piece. The baritone is fun to play. (Yay for pep band!) I get to go to every concert/recital between now and the end of the semester to get all my recital credit. I can't wait to come home for thanksgiving! You rock my socks! Speaking of socks...or sox...YAY RED SOX! I'm done. post comment

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